Day 68- A Thoughtful Surprise

Tonight I was looking for a card to send along with a package I need to send out tomorrow. I was looking in my mom's bed side table because that's where she keeps the cards. While looking I found a bunch of the old Mother's Day and Father's Day cards my brother and I made my parents when we were kids. There were the obvious ones we made in school, and then the few we made on our own.

It was amazing to see not only how much our handwriting has changed, but how much better we have become at forming sentences. It was interesting to see that things I appreciate about my parents and tell them often now, I was saying even when I was in kindergarten. A note I wrote for my mom in 2002 I could have easily written word for word this past Mother's Day. I don't know if that means I haven't become more creative in my words over the years, but I think that it definitely means that my parents have remained constant over the years in the way that they have been in our lives and the way that we view them.

Sure, over the years my relationships with my parents have changed. I think as the years go by my mom and I become closer, which surprises me all the time because I think we couldn't possibly be any closer than we are now but we always find a way. Growing up I would constantly bicker with my dad because we are both so stubborn and always had to have the last word. We still have our moments even now, but I've learned to accept and enjoy him much more than I did when I was a teenager. Especially these last few years I have certainly realized how much he loves me.

I never would have thought looking for a card tonight I would find what I found. It was so touching to know that my mom has hung onto these items all these years. It sort of made me realize how true an idea we hear a lot actually is. The idea that you never really realize how important something we ourselves may view as small can actually mean a great deal to someone else. It truly is the little things that count and matter most. Finding those cards made my day today. It was just something so small, but it changed my entire day.

 Day 68- Photo a Day Challenge- Fear

I am absolutely TERRIFIED of snakes. I can't walk down the reptile area in a pet store, I can't go into the reptile area at a zoo, I even had a hard time looking for a picture of a snake to put on here. They are slimy, can slither anywhere, some are extremely dangerous, and they are just plain gross. I don't really hate anything, but I HATE snakes.

Day 67- Like Old Times

Tonight something amazing happened. I actually had fun and laughed with my younger brother. It has been a very long time since that happened. Growing up as kids we were like your average brother and sister. We got along and would play, but not super close. Through our teenage years again we got along but we weren't exceptionally close. Then from the time I was about 20 years-old until I was about  23 years-old we became really close. We would hangout with a lot of the same people, go to lunch together all the time, and talk about almost anything. I often would prefer to hangout with him over anyone else.

Slowly we started hanging out with different people and we seemed to drift apart a little. We still got along, but we just didn't spend as much time together. Then about 2 years ago he started hanging out with a few people I didn't really care for. I found that he seemed angry a lot and wasn't the same happy go lucky kid I remembered from a few years ago. Little did I know that he was experiencing a lot of the same things I have been the last few years, he just kept it inside.

Mt brother suffers from anxiety as well. Unlike me who gets emotional, panicked, and has to talk my way through it, my brother keeps a lot of stuff in and tries to just deals with it on his own. You would think with both of us dealing with the same thing it would bring us closer, but it hasn't. We still love each other very much and would be there in a second if either of us truly needed it, I just can't remember the last time we hung out and just had fun.

Tonight though, we did. Lately my mom and I have been watching them play a game on The Ellen Degeneres Show called Heads Up. Today I downloaded a version of it on my phone. After dinner I brought my phone to the table where my mom, my dad, my brother, and my brother's friend were still sitting. My brother kinda made fun of me at first about it, but then he started to play it with me. (For those who don't know what the game is you take your phone or iPad and place it on your forehead. Depending on the category different names, songs, movies, etc. come up and you try and guess what it is based on the clues others give). My parents left and it was just us "kids" playing. My brother and I did so well as a team. We were laughing, talking, and having fun. It was kinda amazing.

After words I thought why this could have happened. Is it because I'm feeling better? Is he feeling better? Who knows? But tonight was fun and I'll think about it often over the next few days.


Day 67- Photo a Day Challenge- Shoes

The newest shoes to my collection that I wore today.

Day 66- Uninspired

With all the fun events going on this week, I should have tons to write about but I don't today. I've spent all day trying to think about something to write, but I haven't come up with anything. I guess this is what you call writers block. Oh, well. Better luck tomorrow.

Day 66- Photo a Day Challenge- Handwriting


This photo is a handwritten picture I made in group therapy a few weeks ago. I have it on my wall where I can see it easily in the morning and night. Each day I randomly pick one word or phrase and will tell myself it throughout the day. For example, today I chose the word blessed. So during my day I would say to myself "I AM BLESSED." The more and more you tell yourself something, eventually you will believe it.

Day 65- Go Shorty, It's Your Birthday

Today is my 28th birthday! I had a great day celebrating with family and can't wait to celebrate this weekend with friends.

And thanks to my brother, sister-in-law, and nieces I get to cross off another item on my bucket list!

12.) Own a Bible

Day 65- Photo a Day Challenge- Lockscreen

My favorite picture of me & Tyson is the lockscreen on my phone.

Day 64- Happy Birthday Mom!!

"You are born because you will be important to someone."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the most important person in my life, my MOM!!

LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Day 64- Photo a Day Challenge- Breakfast

My Favorite Breakfast: Bagel with Cream Cheese and Juice

Day 63- Room

Today's photo challenge was room, so I decided to take a picture from all 4 corners of my room. I changed my room around about a year and a half ago. This is the 5th change my room has seen. As a child I had a rainbow heart room for many years. After that I went on to having green and pink flowers, then I had baby blue walls with clouds and butterflies, then I simply had white walls with a black and purple striped comforter, and now I have what you see below.

This room I had the most involvement in. My dad and I made my head board from scratch, I sanded and painted my dresser and desk black, I chose where everything went in my room, and I picked out all the bedding. After my room was all done (it took about 5 days to get everything exactly how I wanted it), I remember just looking into my room from my door way and loving it. I still love it. It totally is a reflection of me and I did so much in creating it. It's me.


Day 63- Photo Challenge Day 2- Room

Day 62- New Month, New Challenge

It's a new month. It's amazing how fast this project of 365 days is going. But this month I'm going try something different. How many of you have heard of the photo a day challenges that people do on Instagram? Well I thought instead of writing every day the thing I did that I love at the end of every post, I would post a picture from the photo a day challenge. 

The photo challenge is something I've been wanting to do for awhile and since June is such a fun month for me and my family, I thought why not? Here is the list of photos I need to take every day:

1. selfie                                11.homework                                     21. last summer

2. room                                12. no make up                                  22. movie

3. breakfast                          13. throw back thursday                    23. Outfit of the Day

4. lockscreen                        14. favorite color                               24. makeup

5. handwriting                      15. flowers                                        25. flip-flops

6. shoes                                16. favorite drink                              26. nails

7. fear                                   17. Last song you played                 27. bathing suit

8. weather                             18. beach throwback                       28. last day of school

9. lunch                                 19. pajamas                                     29. best friends

10. black and white               20. teddy bear                                 30. selfie

While doing these I will explain a little about the picture, plus some of them will cause me to do things I love to do anyways. So here is to day 1!

Day 62- Photo Challenge Day 1- Selfie (Taking a picture of yourself)

Me sitting on the couch watching the movie What to Expect When You're Expecting