Day 129- Helping Mom

Don't have too much time to write today. As soon as I eat something I'm taking Tyson for a walk and then I'm going to help my mom out for a few hours. But, I have committed to posting every day so I am. Enjoy the song below and I'll hopefully have more time to write tomorrow.


Day 129.... Song I Love- Luke Bryan- Crash My Party

Can't wait to see this guy on Saturday and can't wait to hear him play this new song from his new CD! I've been playing it a lot lately to make sure I know the words.

Day 128- Keep Pushing

Tonight I decided to go for a run. If I'm being honest, I haven't been sticking to my training program very we'll yet again. I'm sure I could give a bunch of excuses as to why that is, but the truth is I've just slowly pushed it down my priority list. In hopes of getting some motivation back I just went for a simple run. I didn't use my training app on my phone, I just ran.

From my house to the end of the main street to get to my house is about a mile. When I first started running I would see how long I could run towards the end of the street and then have someone pick me up to bring me home. The reason I would have someone pick me up is because the street is downhill, and I'm just not ready physically to run the fairly steep hill back up to my house. When I started I could get only about half way down before I would have to start walking. I still can't get all the way down, but tonight I ran farther than I ever have.

I wanted to start walking at the place I normally do, but I told myself just a little farther, and I did! As I was running I remembered something I heard on some fitness show. We will tell ourselves that we can't keep going, but in reality our bodies actually can. A lot of marathon runners will tell you that while running the 26.2 miles they have to run to finish the run, there is a point where they hit a "wall." At this point they feel like they can't possibly go anymore, but if they push through it, it becomes easier again. All they have to do is pass that "wall." I knew tonight that even though I wanted to stop, my body was capable going just a little farther.

This idea is the same with any hard situation you may be going through. If you keep pushing, even when you think you can't, go on you will eventually break through that wall and everything will be easier. For me, there were a few times that I thought I couldn't keep living the way I was. I couldn't keep being sick with worry every day because my anxiety was so bad. I couldn't keep wanting to cry every second because I was so unhappy with the way my life was. I knew I had to do something, anything, to get some kind of control back.

It was around this time that I finally decided to see a therapist and get some help. It was also this same kind of thinking that helped me decide to take medicine. I knew I couldn't break through the wall out of nowhere, I would have to train and become strong. The therapy sessions and assignments my therapist gave me where like my workouts, and my medicine was like the supplements I needed to help built the muscle. With the combination of working out and supplements, I became strong enough. I was able to knock down that wall.

And let me tell you, once you break through the wall, it might not be perfect on the other side, but it is one of the most beautiful things you'll ever experience.


Day 128.... Song I Love- All Time Low- Weightless

I have actually had the pleasure of meeting and hanging out with these guys a few times. They are honestly some of the nicest guys I have ever met. This song is one of my favorites of theirs for one specific line in the song. When they sing, "Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's going to be my year," it reminds me that everything will be okay and to stay positive. Just because you have a bad day doesn't mean you have a bad life. Everyone has bad days, the magnificent thing is that the following day can be 100% better.

Day 127- In A Rut

When I first started this project I had the idea that every weekend I would be checking things off my Bucket List and having a year that was full of adventure. I thought I would be facing fears, doing things out of my comfort zone, and having tons of fun all the time. But every day life has taken over. Things like work, paying bills, and the every day responsibilities have taken over. In a way, I'm feeling sort of restless.

Now I know some of things on my list are not possible right now, like adopting a child. There are things though, like get a massage, that can be done. So I think what I need to do is make it a priority to do something. This weekend I will get to cross off a few things because I'm going to a concert where I will see a couple artists I've wanted to for awhile. Since I now have the weekends off, in the beginning of the week I should pick something off my list and plan ahead for the weekend.

That way, the feeling of accomplishment will hopefully take over and maybe I'll find new things I want to add.



Day 127.... Song I Love- Mark Ballas- Hotwire

This guy is best known for being one of the professional dancers on Dancing With The Stars. He ended up recording a CD and this was off it. I can't say why I like, maybe because it's really catchy, but I've listened to it more times than I can count.

Day 126- A Lesson From Tyson

Today I had to go get gas because I didn't want to have worry about running late in the morning to work. I decided to take Tyson with me because like most dogs, he loves going for a ride in the car. While I was driving I looked in my side mirror and saw Tyson. His head was out the window, his lips were flapping in the wind, and he had what appeared to be a smile on his face. He looked so happy and full of life. It was a friendly reminder that it's the little things in life that make everything else worth while.



Day 126.... Song I Love- Hunter Hayes- I Want Crazy

Woke up this morning with this song in my head. Been singing it all day.

Day 125- First Saturday Off

Today was my first Saturday off in months. The best part though, this is how it will be for a very long time!!

I definitely took advantage of it. I slept in, ran errands and did some shopping with my brother, laid in the pool, had dinner with the family, took Tyson for a walk, and ran errands with my mom and aunt after dinner. It wasn't a relaxing day, but it was exactly what I wanted to do.



Day 125.... Song I Love- The Summer Set- Lightening In A Bottle

While I've been going through this process I've listened to this band a lot. Every song of theirs is so upbeat and positive. They are constantly singing about being yourself and living in the moment. This song is off their most recent CD Legendary, which is a reference to one of my favorite shows How I Met Your Mother. I've really liked this band for awhile simply because it's hard to be in a bad mood when listening to them. 

Plus the singer is really cute.

Day 124- Dinner With The Girls

To celebrate my first full week at my new job, my girlfriends and I are going to dinner tonight at one of my favorite restaurants, P.F. Changs!!

I can almost taste those fried green beans now!!



Day 124- Song I Love.... Florida Georgia Line- Round Here

I love country music and this band is one of my favorites right now. I can't wait till next Saturday when I get to see them in concert!

Day 123- August Is Going To Rock!

It's a new month which means I'm going to start ending all my posts with something new. For me, one of my biggest loves in life is music. When my anxiety and depression were at its worst though, music was pushed aside. I wasn't going to concerts, I wasn't listening to music unless I was at work or driving in the car, and I wasn't buying any new music.

Now that I'm feeling better, my love for music has returned. So every day this month I will post a song that I really enjoy and love. Maybe I'll tell you why or maybe I'll just let you enjoy. Either way, here is to a month of music!


Day 123- Song I Love....  Gavin DeGraw- Not Over You

Saw him last summer in concert....one of the best performers I've ever seen. He is so charismatic and exciting to watch. Plus his song I Don't Wanna Be was the theme song to my favorite show growing up, One Tree Hill.

This is not that song, but this is one of my favorites of his.